Saturday, October 24, 2015

10% Battery Life Remaining



For iPhone users, we all know this dreaded box that pops up on our phone.

I know, I know, que the "she's about to use this metaphor to apply to life" speech. But, what I am about to say is true... Or it was for me anyway.

Have you ever found yourself reaching that "low battery" point in life? I mean you've already received one warning when you hit 20% indicating that you need to take some time to care for yourself, but you hit "dismiss" instead. What happens after you get that 20% warning? Shortly after you will get your final warning at 10% and once you click "dismiss" on that warning without taking care of yourself you will eventually find yourself dead... I mean not literally... Or at-least I hope not... Haha!

Sometimes we plug our phones in long enough to get that extra fifteen minutes until we again encounter the dreaded "low battery" notification. Believe it or not when we do this to ourselves, like our phones, this method of "charging" is dangerous to our overall life and health.

But whats worse is that like our phones, when our body sends us messages saying "HEY! Your not taking care of yourself" we tend to hit dismiss. The problem I have found with this, yes at the glorious age of twenty-two, is that we cannot ignore our bodies, our emotions, our health, without it reaching the thing we've dreaded all along, the thing that completely wipes us out until we tend to our needs.

Our emotions, our feelings, are our iPhone warning signs and we need to PAY ATTENTION to these warning signs in our life. We need to set ourselves aside and take care of ourselves when we get these warning notifications.

 No matter what anyone says, the best way to "get over yourself" is not to tend to someone else's needs and ignore your own because theirs is so much more worse. You see, that's the "im going to plug myself in but still use my phone" method, which as we've already talked about can cause more harm. 

You have got to show yourself some self-compassion and give yourself some self-care. No matter how old you are, don't buy the lie that, "You've not been doing ____ long enough to need a break." - That's a lie! Why? Because you're human. No matter how old you are, you're not perfect, and you're susceptible to life, we all are. 

Oh, and by the way, let me tell you what this is NOT a result of if you find yourself in this low battery mode.

This is not a result of,

1. Your "prayer life" not being effective. 
2. Your age
3. Your relationship with God not "being right"

Let me tell you what it is actually a result of,

1. You trying to please people by not using your assertive right to say no
2. Tending to everyone else's needs but your own
3. Ignoring your emotions and not addressing the "low battery" sign

Its okay that you're in this place, because you aren't perfect, you are an imperfect and broken human in need of grace and love. But what you need to do is to stop what you're doing and take some time to care for yourself.

Stop ignoring the "low battery" warning, get off the phone, stop using the phone while it's charging, set the phone aside and let it charge without interfering with it.

Oh boy, there's so much more that could be said after that last statement, but i'll spare you with a short blog entry. 



Monday, October 6, 2014

The vision, and where I am right now.


I think I have written this opening sentence approximately 10 times already. Type, erase, type, erase… I do not know how to begin this, or what I want to share/not to share. This morning I was driving to Starbucks, and I was so nervous yet so excited to get to share my vision with an amazing lady I was meeting for coffee.  
Every Thursday I go to an after school program called Study Club which is in a government housing area between Weatherford, and Hudson Oaks. Every Thursday I am honored to get to watch kids come in, get a snack, learn bible verses, small lessons, learn about goals, and get stable one-on-one homework time. These children are “at-risk” students; low-income families, etc. The thing I love about study club is that I see me in the eyes of these children. (ME) Growing up in a very low-income family, an inconsistent, unstable environment, divorced parents, parents with addiction, parents who committed crime, etc. I don't see a statistic when I look into their faces; I see purpose, I see potential, I see perfect love.
Becoming an advocate/mentor for children who have a parent who is addicted to alcohol and pills, and children whose parents are living a life of crime is something I want to do because that's my story. My story is a story of resilience and redemption. This has definitely been a topic of exploration and prayer lately. I know what God has put into my heart, but I do not know how He intends to bring it about. That's where I am.


Often you will know “what” long before you know “how” - Andy Stanley


Part of this vision includes speaking in schools, churches, events, conferences, and hosting conferences for women and young girls in churches.  Did I mention that I also want to write a book! ← This has been a dream of mine for years and years but I pushed it aside for a while. I have peace about this vision the Lord has given me, because He sustains me. His word says in Psalm 139 that everyday of my life has been planned out before they ever come to pass. His word says in Jeremiah 29 that He has a plan and purpose for my life. Romans 8, He will make all things work together for my good. Psalm 55, He sustains and will not let me be shaken. Jeremiah 1:5 He knows ME, and has set me apart for His holy purpose. Ultimately its for His glory.

It took so much courage for me to write this blog post. If you know me you know I'm super big on details, organization, and structure. I know this blog is probably all over the place, but that's okay right now. I'm writing, and that's something I haven't done in a really long time so I give myself permission to accept that if it is a little scattered right now (lol).  I am super excited to see everything come together in time, but until then I will keep growing closer to the heart of my creator.


Until next time,

Tiffany :)